Horror Podcasts on Youtube!
If you follow me on any of my socials, you probably already know that Olivia Blair—my badass friend, and co-founder at Fanward—and I host a weekly podcast where we try to give the voice back to you, the audience.
Because let’s be real... in a world where every massive studio and AAA game company plays the victim while squeezing the life out of the very people keeping them alive, someone’s gotta shift the spotlight back where it belongs: on the fans, the creators, and the stories that actually matter to us.
This week—and next week, for part two—we’re diving into a topic that’s near and dear to my cold, cursed little heart. That’s right. We’re talkin’ horror, baby.
So head on over to the official Fanward YouTube channel to check out this week's episode, catch next week’s continuation, and keep an eye out for an upcoming special one... which might just happen to be about a certain 630-page horror epic I wrote. No big deal. Just a little nightmare of a novel, is all.
A Self-Help Inspirational Book?
Firstly… why?
Honestly, fair question.
But for someone like me—someone who’s lived through a rough stretch of life… depression, suicidal thoughts, divorce, loss, regret, bullying, betrayal, abuse, losing myself completely—and somehow managed to crawl out the other side, this felt like the exact book that needed to be written.
Yeah, it’s a bit outside my usual lane. But maybe that’s the point. The fact that it’s so different, and I still feel pulled to write it—that tells me I’m supposed to.
So I am.
The Sisyphus Complex is my attempt to tie the grind of real life to the ancient myth of Sisyphus—the guy cursed to push a boulder up a hill forever, only to watch it roll back down every time. But here’s the thing: he still pushes. Day after day. Whether it’s out of defiance, stubborn hope, or sheer willpower… he keeps going.
And don’t we all?
We fall, we break, we burn out—and yet we keep getting back up. Even knowing we’ll fall again. So how do we live with that struggle, instead of treating it like some enemy to conquer? How do we stop seeing it as punishment and start seeing it as proof that we’re alive?
Not “it is what it is.”
But: “I’ll do it. Because I can. Because I must.”
That’s what this book is about. Taking everything that feels pointless, painful, exhausting—and turning it into fuel.
If you’ve ever felt like you’re stuck at the bottom of the hill—I hope The Sisyphus Complex helps you find your footing again. Helps you stand up, take a breath… and start pushing.